I thought I would be more settled with motherhood. 4 and half years and three kids in and I constantly feel like my heart is a trampoline for all my worst feelings to have a playdate on. Like most women who become moms, I had confidence in my abilities to be a mom, wife, homemaker before … Read more
Alternate Title: Let’s have a real talk about what’s in YOUR heart SUCCESS. We all want it, but we rarely put any personal clarification behind what it ought to mean to us. We want success because success means we did things ‘right’. Success implies that we are in a great state of life. Therefore, we … Read more
Alternate Title: Go On Road Trips, They Said! It’s Fun, They Said! I thought I should check in with the ‘lists‘ we made of how we wanted to parent our kids. We set some clear ideas on things we wanted to do from the mundane to the epic. We wrote out qualities we wanted our kids … Read more
Last spring I was rocking Dawson to sleep. I could hear Levi and Nena playing dress-up in the living room. Nena was torn between princess and horse. Levi was trying to wriggle into the cowboy costume. I could hear him say, “No, don’t be a princess, I want you to be a horse.” If you … Read more
Alternate title: Why is this crap still in my house? After the initial ‘purges’ I felt good. I got rid of the easy stuff: the garbage, the broken, the ‘I don’t even really like this’, or the ‘that was so college Me’ Inspired by @sophiemar12 to clean my bedroom and hit the jackpot … Read more
I was sitting at the table reciting our upcoming family schedule like a drill sergeant. There was my two-and-half-year-old son running around the table, my year old daughter throwing a fit over everything she could think of and my husband with zero expression on his face. He put down his lunch, looked me in the … Read more
We have all settled. For a relationship not leading anywhere, a job we hated, a botched dye job, overpriced quinoa flour, a wardrobe of clothes we kinda like but not really. On one hand, settling can be a good thing, it rustles up those parts of us that we let solidify into entitlement. When it becomes … Read more
If you ask me, ‘Is motherhood what you envisioned it to be?’ I would probably just make some weird sound effects and give a shimmying shoulder shrug. As my own body changed with swelling and shrinking over the recent years, so has my ‘envisioned’ ideas of motherhood. The same can be said for how I … Read more
I wanted to write this post and tell you that for the first time in my adult life I have real, legit, New Year’s resolutions! (because all the other years I have copped-out and said my resolution is to ‘chew my food well’, I mean, this really falls in the life skill category, not … Read more
I have spent much of my life waiting. Waiting to drive. To graduate from college. Waiting for my boyfriend to propose to me (little did I know what marriage entailed). Waiting to own a house (which turned out to be this house). Desperately waiting to see two pink lines, then, of course, waiting to not … Read more